New York City influencer Christine Tran Ferguson, revealed her son, Asher, 1, passed away after a two-week health battle.
Ferguson shared the news via an Instagram post.
“My heart is utterly broken and shattered into a million pieces,” she wrote in the post shared on July 20.
“I will never understand why, nothing makes sense, I’m still in shock, I just want to wake up from this unimaginable nightmare and have you back in my arms. Why is this happening to us, why Asher??” the grieving mom wrote.
“You did not deserve any of this. Losing you is the hardest experience mommy and daddy has ever had to endure. Everyday has been torture without you, this pain is unbearable,” the travel and lifestyle blogger continued. “I still feel like you’re going to reappear but our home is so quiet and empty without you. Part of me has died with you. I’m so heartbroken, with no idea how to live a life without you.”
Ferguson concluded her post by saying they are still unsure what caused Asher’s death.
“I just ask for privacy during this difficult time as we’re still in shock and still have no answers to this unbearable nightmare,” she wrote.
Ferguson, known online by her username @tourdelust, revealed in early July that her baby boy was in ICU and “fighting for his life.”
She initially shared the news via an Instagram post, writing: “Please God, give us a miracle and save my sweet Asher,” accompanied by a carousel of photos, including one of him in the hospital.
Ferguson gave birth to her son on April 20, 2022, and wrote an emotional post detailing his traumatic birth. In the post, she explained she had to undergo an unplanned C-section because his heart rate kept dropping as she was in labor.
“The doctor told us he had the cord around his neck so when the contractions happened it would tighten around his neck which led to his heart rate dropping,” Ferguson wrote in the caption. “I’m just so glad our amazing doctors delivered him safely.”
The message continued, “It was awhile before I got to finally hold him once I was in the recovery room. I couldn’t believe it, he’s FINALLY HERE in my arms! I feel so blessed and lucky to be your mother and understand what everyone has told me. There is no love like this.”